S.T.A.C.

Running Time: 1:23

Released On: "Overcoming Anger" - Various Artists (11 tracks)

Label: Ensemble For Sound Poetry And Contemporary Music

Release Date: 6th February 2023

Format: Download

Buy Link: Bandcamp

The project title; "Overcoming Anger"
The remit; "This is a project about finding peace."
But this is 83 seconds of anger celebrating its victory over reason, isn't it?
I think it probably is, I can only apologise.
And hate damages the hater, not the hated, I know that.
But those who would cause pain to those you love...
Those who will never express regret...
Those who will never even explain their actions...
They give you little space for closure.
So 83 seconds of anger celebrating its victory over reason it is.
For now.
We live in hope.

I'm not really sure what to say about this one, but those are the liner notes that accompany the track on the release. Yeah, I get that it maybe sounds like a low grade punk band doing their best to cause offence by shouting 'cunt' a few times, but there's more to it than that, I promise. In my defence, I have Asperger's Syndrome, an autistic spectrum disorder, it can make inter-personal relationships complex and difficult, to say the least.

Overcoming anger is not something I'm good at, to be honest. Perceived injustices bounce around in my head, I'm compelled to go over every detail of events repeatedly, analysing their every nuance, until such time as there is fair resolution. That seems to be something that happens only rarely, and where there is no fair resolution, it will only fade with the passage of time. Much time. And it will never go away entirely. With this particular perpetrator, it's only been three years, and I know from personal experience it'll take a bit longer yet before the storm calms. It's got better, it was in my head all the time for the first couple of months, now it just passes through every few days and Sam and I have to have a conversation about it. Again. We have to make certain I am reassured that there was nothing else I could have done to make things right. I also have a compulsion to fix things, even when experience has taught me that sometimes, even trying to do that just makes the situation worse. Knowing when to stop and walk away is not something that comes naturally to me. Skit has a much more direct and black and white view of life, the universe and everything;

"He needs to be told he's a cunt." He states matter-of-factly.

Out of the mouth of babes and sucklings hast thou ordained strength...

MALWEN ROW